Friday, January 27, 2006

Chinese New Year Resolution

Time to set some resolutions:

Friends:
1) Keep old friends.
- Write a list of friends who I want to stay in touch and ask them out often for dinners.
- Learn to treat friends the way that they feel most comfortable with. Note the difference in opinions between them and me ba and dun try to impose my opinion on them.

2) Have new friends.
- Have friends that think similarly as me. Haha.. so that I will know that I am not the one big weirdo who thinks different from the rest of the world. (Have to thank two friends who are there to share my views so that I feel more assured about my stand and more determined to assert my opinion.)
- Have friends who think differently as me. Learn to accept differences. So that life will be more interesting.

Personal:
1) Improve on communication skills by reading more, talking more.
2) Learn to get comfortable with talking to more people. Learn to ignore remarks that I cannot stand.
3) Brush up on my formal mask. The mask that I wear while interacting with people i work with, collegues, lab people, etc.
4) Build up self-esteem and self confidence, courage, optimism and of course my happiness index.
5) Learn as much as I can. Overcome the stagnation of my learning curve.
6) Be less affected by what other people say.

Graduate School and Research:
1) Find a good lab, project and advisor.
2) Get along with Lab people.
3) Good housing.
4) Good courses.
5) Have faith that I will be a good researcher and work hard towards the goal.

Others:
1) Let Mian Mian and Yang Yang be happy always.
2) Faith, study and practice.

Okie. as usually a long list of things to do. Haha.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

About me

JY said that I am hyper logical.
XB said she is not so worried about me as compared to YL.

I wonder if I really give that logical, heartless and cool look.

Haha... I wonder.

Nvm, I shall think about the issue in another way.

First of all, why would I want to make my friends worry about me? Haha.. of course everyone wants concern from other people but I guess concern need not equate to getting your friends' needless worries.

I being 22 already have to know how to handle my life and my responsibilities. Friends are good to be there to give some advices, listen to my complaints and share my joy. But ultimately I am the only one responsible for my own life.

Hence if my friends are not worried for me, it is caused they know that I can take care of myself well and that that I am a responsible adult.

Hyper logical... haha... I live with this comment first.

Heartless or not, I still believe that at my very least, I have not caused other people to get hurt or blame them for my problems.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Random Updates

1) Little Turtle will be going on an excursion to little Taiwan in late February. Hmm.. actually little Taiwan is bigger than small Singapore where little turtle is from. She will be going with her toad friend and a beaver couple. Little Turtle hopes that the trip will be lots of fun and that her four limbs will not get too tired during the nice 8 day trip.

2) The production line has stopped and Little Turtle has no more nanowire to test. Hence little turtle is feeling kind of lost.

3) In the meanwhile, little turtle is learning a little more about the packaging side of the work. This is a little fun and hopefully turtle will master it well.

4) Turtle receives a letter from her grandma in caltech. It is a nice mail and grandma told turtle " give people a little time to understand you, you are like a pearl in an oyster shell na... very hard to crack it open first but glimpses of it are tempting ;-) "
Turtle is still pondering over the meaning of this philosophical statement from up north.

5) In the meantime, Turtle is beginning to understand the importance of give-and-take, virtues of gossiping less, the therapeutic effects of verbalizing her problems and to always try to smile.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Something touching

One of my three goldfish has fallen sick. It decreases in size and is always stationary at one corner of the tank.

I notice that the other two goldfishes in the tank always stay close to the sick goldfish. Even right now when they are all going to sleep, the two other fishes are right beside this sick fish.

Staying together in times of pain.

Mebe fishes have brains, mebe, what i am really sure is that they do have a heart.