Monday Blues

BLue blue...

luckily got my xiao huang to accompany me. haha.. dun get it wrong. xiao huang is a little yellow cat in my office. There are also xiao lan and xiao hong.

Blues:

Blue 1: dunno whether my cornell professor, lovelace, will remember me or not. hmmm... no choice have to bring up the fact that i am mansi's friend. Since he will surely remember mansi, hopefully he will remember me too. He used to think that i was doing research in astrophysics as he always see me in the astro building. Never did he guess that I was hanging around the astro building because there is a huge, nice astro lounge with big cushion chairs for me to take my afternoon nap during lunch time.

Blue 2: dr ajay asked me to get results for the silver-coated substrate. but my friend not in singapore and i dun have the laser license yet. so how can i do the experiment?? hmm.. have to ask another person for help then. aiyah.. so hard to ask people for help. feel so wat

Blue 3: prof kwong asked me to think of questions on SERS so that i can turn
information into knowledge.
think this is quite profound.

okie.. actually only three blues. so not very blue lah. aiyah.. actually really not that blue.

hopefully
1: prof will remember me. hopefully he will.
2: i will avoid ajay at all costs.
3: think loh.

=))

Interview with Guest blogger

What is ur fav song for e decade? you live more than ten years right?

Too many.

*i pointed a finger at her* and said "must have one!!"

Different "theme songs" for different occasions. Present favourite = piao1, theme song of a mainland drama whose name I've forgotten.

why?

Very sad.

Why u like v sad songs?

More touching.

why sad songs are touching??

cuz I get angry at people who are happy. No just kidding. mmm... you think a sad emotion is more intense or a happy emotion?

hmmm.... die liao.. ask until so difficult. now i kanna ask. =(( depends on wat lah. i seldom get sad leh. only ten times a day wat.

I'm cautious with happy emotions cuz I never thought I can get a whole lot of happiness. So cannot make it very touching. But sadness can be felt without responsibility haha

there is this hk drama where this character actually believe that each of us has an allocated amount of happiness so she wants to use them wisely and she nv gets too happy.

I think we should adjourn the interview and go home now. Otherwise we will act another seasons of LOST on the island.

hmmm.. island.. sigh.. why am i stuck on this stupid island!!!!

mmmmm.... Singapore is an island.......

I give up.

Is there something wrong with my face?

Why people always accuse me of being angry when i am not?!?!?!

&%$$##@@##

sigh sigh sigh.

if people kept saying i am angry, i declare that "I am REALLY going to GET ANGRY!!!!"

sigh sigh sigh.....

okie.. hmm.. in the meantime let me explain something about buddhism

in buddhism, we believe that there are ten life conditions. They are like ten orthogonal life conditions vectors and your lifestate can be any vector in this ten dimensional space.

Anyway, the ten states are:
1) Hell
2) Animality
3) Hunger
4) Anger
5) Tranquility
6) Ecstasy
7) Learning
8) Realization
9) Buddhisatva
10) Buddha

Everyday, our lifestates will shift freely between the states. Which is usual. Imagine I am happily enjoying my sleep. I am at a state of tranquility. And i am dreaming of JJ. Now i am in e state of Ecstasy. Then suddenly, the phone rang, I picked it up worrying that there must be something urgent or else people will not call me at like 2 a.m. Then I realize it is my friend who just could not sleep in the night. Then I am like "derrrrrrrrrrr" and i am in the state of anger.

Okie. I guess my point is put across.

But e main point is that we all have a dominant lifestate. The state where we mostly frequently experience.

For example: Xiao long nv = tranquility
A prisoner of war = hell

sometimes e lifestate are sort of determine by the external conditions. Example if u are hungry, u are in the state of hunger. I mean there is little way for you to tell ur stomach not to growl.

but at other times, e lifestate is determined by the internal conditions, meaning e viewpoint of the individual. Like if my experiment fails, i can be in the state of anger or in the state of learning or a superposition of the two.

so... that is my problem also. when my experiment fails, i am usually in the state of anger than learning. hmmm.. must change, must change.

okie i do admit that anger is a frequent life state of mine. but then usual it is when people accuse me of being angry. or say like there is some issues between us, then i start to think and get angry.

or mebe it is my face. sigh... must put more cleanser. or mebe u all can sponsor me for some operation to change my face.

okok.... so.. what is UR dominant life state??

jy said that hers is learning.
i said that mine is ANGER so as to make everyone satisfied.
actually huh..... i realize if my mental is strong enough, i can make myself nv to get angry with all my logic.

oh well.. LOGIC.hmm.. hopefully i will dream of jj tonight. sweet dreams everyone. =P

The importance of lyrics.

I think most people feel that the music contribute more to the success of a song rather than the lyrics.

In some sense this is true lah. I mean nobody ever understand what jay chou is trying to sing right?

But then, my friend sent me a wrong set of lyrics for jiang nan. Act. i did not memorise the lyrics for jiang nan, more one look at the set of lyrics that my friend sent. I know immediately that this set has to be wrong. Cos despite the subtle differences. The wrong lyrics creates an image which is not beautiful.

Take your time to look at the lyrics below and I am sure u can figure out with set is the right one.

江南 曲：林俊杰 词：李瑞洵

风到这里就是黏 黏住过客的思念
雨到了这里缠成线 缠着我们流连人世间
你在身边就是缘 缘份写在三生石上面
爱有万分之一甜 宁愿我就葬在这一点
圈圈圆圆圈圈 天天年年天天
的我深深看你的脸
生气的温柔
埋怨的温柔
的脸
不懂爱恨情愁煎熬的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信爱一天 抵过永远
在这一剎那冻结了时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
离愁能有多痛 痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中
心碎了才懂

风到这里就思念粘住过客的思念
雨到了这里粘成线缠着我们留恋人世间
你在身边就是缘缘分写在三寸石上面
爱有万分之一天宁愿我就葬在这一天
圈圈园园圈圈甜甜粘粘甜甜
的我深深看你的脸
想起的温柔
满脸的温柔
的脸
不懂爱恨情仇颠倒的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信那一天抵过永远
在这一刹那冻结那时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
你走得有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中
心碎了才懂

see the difference now? =P

Thanks for the two sets of lyrics.

Hihi =)

也许喜欢怀念你，多于看见你。也许喜欢想想你，多于得到你。

Oh dear... why am i becoming so turtle.

but seriously sometimes, illusions are much more beautiful.

=) I love to dream. The feeling of hope with infinite possibilities.

Finding myself

Onion onion, the onion theory.

About the Gohonzon (1)

Today I went to a very good soka lecture and to prevent myself from forgetting everything that I learnt, I shall put them into my blog.

First of all what is the Gohonzon.
It is our object of worship and it is inscribed in 12th Oct 1279 by Nichiren Daishonin (our founder).

It is our object of fundamental respect.

Hmmm.. what does the name Gohonzon means?
Go = an honorific prefix
Honzon = what it is that we based our lives on. 'Mandala' in sanskrit meaning "cluster of blessings"

so... the Gohonzon is an honorable thing that we based our lives on?
still sounds very chim.

what does the Gohonzon symbolizes?
It embodies the actual enlightenment of e Buddha as described in "the ceremony in the air" (a metaphoric story that is in the 15th chapter of the lotus sutra.)
In the ceremony in the air, buddha attained enlightenment in the treasure tower and other buddhas and Bodhisattvas gathered around him. This is the metapher for buddha gaining enlightenment and realizing that there are buddhas all around him. The buddhas upon enlightenment realize that everyone has the inherent buddha nature and hence recognizes buddhas around him.

what is actually on the Gohonzon?
In the center are the words "nam myoho renge kyo" which symbolizes buddha on the treausre tower. Surrounding the buddha are inscriptions that depicts the assembly of various living beings as representatvies of the 10 life states or ten worlds that gathered around the treasure tower to listen to buddha's teaching.

why is the Gohonzon in the form of words on a scroll?
Haha.... words mean a lot. Nichiren realizes what buddhahood is and want to show others how to attain buddhahood too. That is why he inscribed the Gohonzon. So i guess in modern days terms, it is like him signing a contract to legally bind to us that everyone has buddhahood and we can all achieve it.

What is the function of the Gohonzon?
The Gohonzon is the ideal environment or external stimulus for the awakening of e life-states (10 worlds) of a buddha. It is like a mirror for us to reflect on our true self and realize that yeah... oh.. i am a buddha. =)

Nutnut's coffee chart

7/10 Friday: 5 times

10/10 Monday: 3 times

13/10 Thursday: 7 times

Weird Dream

Have a really weird dream yesterday.

I dreamt that Lin Junjie is my boyfriend. Hmmm.. how is that possible, i think i like jay chou and jeff chang much more than him but I nv dream of them being my bf.

soooo weird.

but he is kind, nice, soft spoken and gentle in my dream. Haha.. think i suan him but nvm... my bad. sigh.. i think some guys give the impression that if u tease them, u are very bad cos they simply look so........ gentle and soft. haha.....

okok.. anyway, just before i have e chance to go out with him for our official date, my mum woke me up. sigh... sad sad.. why is it always like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but nvm lah, he gave me a gift in the dream.. haha... so at least got a gift. but.. i also nv unwrapped it.

okie.. enough of day dreams.... haha

Interesting Theory about who to date

One of my guy friend has this theory about who to try to date.

He said that he always try to date gals who are already attached.

Reason being:

There is only one competitor.
If the bf is neglecting in any little way, he will stand a good chance.

About gals who are not attached:

He said that they are either

1) not so good
2) too many competitors
3) not interested in becoming attached.
4) too idealistic in choosing.

Hmmm.. any comment about his words??

talk

The take-home is:

Say thank you



irregardless of whether u mean it or not. =)

Micropipette Puller and Programmable Pressure Injector

Hihi,

today is quite an interesting day, considering how bored I had been for the past few days.

Today I learn how to use a micropipette puller. It is really simple actually since everything is already programmed into the machine. Anyway what it does is that it heats up a glass rod at the center and pull the glass rod after heating so as to get a sharp tip at the end of the glass rod. The program that I am using today can create a tip of about 1 micron in diameter. Cool right? All thanks to my Shixiong who taught me how to use the machine.

Xueli is counting cells again today. But she seems to be having some problems with focusing on the cells. Dunno what is going on.

Oh... I also played with the Pressure injector today using the glass micropipette. It is really hard. Heard from the machine guy that the vendor came down 4 times and still cannot figure out how to use the machine.
Manage to get the machine to work a bit but kept breaking the micropipette tip. Furthermore, there is also a leaking (water) current issue even when I switched the balance pressure to zero. Think I need to read the user manual again. =((

There is going to be a director's meeting later. Wondering what he is doing to say. KPI? Hmmm... dunno leh.

A tuesday in october

Hihi,

Hmmm.. i think i am starting to realise that time is running up.

And that I will be going back to the states pretty soon.

Feel like a lot of things are not settled yet.

Feeling scared.

Haha... of course a lot of things have not been done. I havent even gone on serious shopping yet.

And I only met my secondary group of close friends once. Hmmm... mebe time has washed everything away.

Also, I havent done much work at ime yet.

Hmmm..... and where should i go for my graduate studies??